There were any number of reasons for me to build this website, Lost 0. When I originally came up with this name was eleven years ago though I waited several years to purchase the name. Several years is what it took for me to decide whether or not I wanted to tell the world about a very long downhill slide into the bottle. I am going to say a couple of things about my mishap but want my readers to know there is a reason behind my doing so and that reason is not sympathy. I am good with what happened to me, two and one half months in the hospital learning to walk again, and a brain which had needed to be cleansed since Vietnam. That is how I term my abuse of alcohol and my drop off the cliff, cleansing.
You should understand that my illness from alcohol was so serious that my prognosis was to be in a vegetative state until I died. If, that is, I lived through the first night in hospital. Obviously, I made it and the next couple of months was a grind to just be mobile again. I took all the physical therapy I could so my regimen was two to three times per day and my food was diced so that I could swallow.
I am healthy as a horse now but old is as old does and I find myself slowing down now but I will take it as I survived and regained good health with no after effects. I guess part of it was the injury to my back in Vietnam. The pain got to me and a few drinks made it better for a while. That is probably a shabby excuse but that was how it started, the drinking. The dreams were part of it to as combat makes the brain recall nasty visuals.
When I bought the name, Lost 0, it was as a symbol for what I put my family through. A family that is still with me and has forgiven my transgressions. Believe me, it took a ton of work to right my ship and I am quite strong in the thought that the drinking will not happen again. I do this just by will power with no psychiatry or AA meetings and the realization that if I slip, somehow, back into my old ways I may as well just jump off that cliff I mentioned above.
I write this today and this is it about me here. I figure that you should know who this guy is and allow my readers the choice of staying with me or going somewhere else. The truth never hurts as much as the lies that hide it.
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